Some people are just not worth trying to please. There will come a time in your life when you will try your hardest to be the absolute best for another person, and even then these people will not notice and turn a blind eye to your attempts. These people ARE NOT WORTH IT; they don’t appreciate you for who you are, and will not treat you the way you deserve to be treated.
It seems as if this person mindlessly says and does things which hurt you and doesn’t appreciate you for the girl you are. His priorities lay in completely the wrong places if he thinks that the only thing that makes up attractiveness is physical beauty. This person is forcing you to regress back into unhealthy habits and he is probably one of the reasons that you have started one of the unhealthiest habits I know.
You promised yourself never to expect anything from a guy right? No, promise never to expect anything from any more guys like him.
Never expect anything from a guy who doesn’t understand you.
Never expect anything from a guy who only appreciates physical beauty.
Never expect anything from a guy who brings out the worst in you.
Never expect anything from a guy who constantly hurts you.
Never expect anything from a guy who makes you want to change for him.
Why the fuck do you want to change for this douchebag of a guy who doesn’t even appreciate you for who you are and probably won’t no matter what you do?
What has this guy done which is so great that you would starve yourself, exhaust yourself, hurt yourself, and completely change yourself to gain his approval?
Just think, do you really need his approval? Do you really need the attention from a guy who can’t even treat you properly? Does he even deserve your attention?
Don’t change yourself to attract any douche; once you’re done with him, you’ll just attract more douches because that is what you have changed yourself to attract.
Look for the real guy, the one who can call you beautiful, and can really mean it; he’s the one who is going to treat you right, understand you, bring out the best in you, and won’t try to change you at all. This is the guy that you will be happy with.
Don’t change yourself for this guy, he is not worth it.